Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Always the Bridesmaid, Never the Bride

Well at least when it comes to having this baby...lol.

Everyone I know that was due in June has had their baby.....everyone but me.

My good friend who was due 5 days after me...yep she had her baby last night. I am genuinely excited for her and only a teensy jealous...we wagered a margarita on who would domino first.....looks like she's buying!

I'm only 2 days past my due date....which due dates are totally a scam to make you feel like you are inadequate and broken and a failure....for some reason I had it in my head I was going to have him before my due date (I'm sure 99% of all women think the same thing).  What's funny is I even wrote a post awhile back talking about how I was gonna throw my due date out the window, and have peace and patience for this baby to come, I had a plan to be earth mother buddha goddess and not let having this baby affect me ...well that was then and this is now, and my know-it-all 2nd trimester blog posts can make like a baby and suck it...

I am so uncomfortable, I cant hardly sleep, I'm emotional, my stretch marks feel like they are burning in some places on my belly, I really could go on and on, but I'll spare you....

The only thing that has helped me is every morning I get up and tell myself "Today is the last day you will be pregnant..." and for some reason that helps me appreciate it a little more and gets me through the day....and then at night before I go to bed...still pregnant and NOT in labor...I pray for God to grant me His peace, and faith in His plan for me and baby.

So that's whats up.  I will say I am very appreciative to not be receiving a lot of texts and messages with the "no baby yet?" theme... that has spared me some of my sanity.