My Meltdown

Well I had a little bit of a....okay, maybe a full blown meltdown yesterday afternoon.  This baby belly is really starting to limit me in my everyday activities and life...bending over repeatedly to pick up toys and put them away is tough (not to mention I seem to drop everything lately), having to twist my body sideways to get close enough to the sink to do the dishes, standing up and siting down, getting in and out of my car,  going up the stairs at work ...but really, struggling to picking up my son...that's the one that kills me the most. My body is telling me I shoudnt be doing it anymore...but you tell that to a 16month old.  How do I get him in his crib for a nap in the afternoon? Calm him down when he bumps his head? Get him in his high chair?  My Midwife Toni reminded me the other day at my appointment that after I have new baby I wont be able to pick up Callan for awhile either...this makes me want to cry.  I guess that's the price you pay having 2 babies so close together. 

The other factor that contributed to my meltdown (besides being hormonal and pregnant) is being so tired.  I woke up at 3am and couldn't go back to sleep. I have to be at work at 5am, and when I get home at 1pm all I want to do is take a nap which may or may not happen depending on my lil nugget.  I feel like a bad mom through all of this...no energy, trying to refrain picking him up, begging him for a nap instead of enjoying his playfulness. 

 I really dont know what I can do about any of this, and I suspect its only gonna get more difficult from here on out.  My Husbands encouragement went like this: "You can do it!" and "Other Moms have done it, you can do it too!"...and then he promptly leaves to go to a crawfish boil with friends.... all the while I'm thinking he hasnt a clue what I'm going through....men.  So send some prayers and positive vibes my way for the next few months, cause I'm gonna need it!! 

Sorry to be such a Debbie-Downer on a Friday.....
~Kellie